Trust

  Sometimes I find it difficult to trust.  I am not sure why that is, maybe I have been let down too many times in the past.  I have been finding though,  that I can trust God completely.  Lately,  I have been asking Him to open my eyes and help me to be sensitive to see where He is at work around me, and He is answering that prayer ! 
   Those of you that know me well know I do get nervous in situations where I am singing.  There are times when that nervousness causes me to "crash and burn" !  We've all done that at one time or another, maybe not singing,  but in some situation ;0)
   I went and sang at NATS last weekend.  A singer prepares three pieces for their genre ( classical and/or musical theater) and presents one to the three judges, then the judges choose your second piece to perform.  I had been praying for weeks for this.  Not "oh Lord let me win this competition....."  It was "Lord, you have given me a desire to sing, You created me to be who I am, please don't let the fear get in the way of the voice You have given me," then, and I do not do this, " Lord, I trust you will do this for me", and was confident in that.   I also had a few close people praying that He remove the fear as well.  He did it !  Why was I surprised?  He is faithful !  For me, though,  I just feel that I am being presumptuous by saying "Lord, I trust you will do this for me".   Maybe He wants me to crash and burn to learn something from the situation !  The whole experience was just a big eye opener for me, plus God working and accomplishing the goal I had of not letting the fear take over.  To top it off, one of the judges said my high range had a "beautiful full sound"  Praise the Lord, because those are the notes that I was afraid of ;0), (not so much anymore).  I am just so incredibly thankful for what God is showing me about myself, even the painful bits, and those around me. 

For His Glory !
Margaret